Have you ever tried imagine the moment you are lashed by the flogs used to flog Jesus or his apostles? Have you been pricked by a cactus?

Guess what? I tried that yesterday night! Not on my back or palm, but my anus! All because of that tomato. Just two thin slice and i got food poisoning. i suspect it's a Genetically Modified Food.

When i passed motioned, the stool scratched my anus hole that i really feel the pain as if buasir bocor... but i don't have buasir la. Most probably it's the acid from my stomach since it was indigestion. The sensation is like pulling the nine tails from the hole, or stuffing the cactus in the hole and pull it out in a very fast speed. OUCH!!!

And it wasn't only once, but i think... 6 times?

Sounds disgusting? Beware of what you eat!

Someone please put off the fire

i think im getting grumpy like months before. same person again. nvm. anyone out there, please be prepared to put off this fire of anger in me. anytime, i'll meletup.

F6 orientation ceremony

guess what?! i'm the emcee with Diyana, Yuhanis' sister. Both of us were kinda lame. But thank God that He empowered me to speak well. At least not all the words coming out from my mouth at the same time... haha.

i was kinda disappointed la... until the souvenir-giving session, almost everyone cabuted. No respect for their seniors at all! Partially because it was already very late. The expected time to end was 5pm but because of some people's performances, the crowd cabuted at 5.40pm. Can't really blame them.

and i cant believe i said a super lame joke in front of Pn Gan, Pn Phoon and Pn Shoba, all because i needed to drag the time... How will they label me later, i wonder...

Me pastor?

Yesterday the Sunday, MYF was supposed to handle children ministry. The mangkuk president suddenly text me that she won't be coming. Wadda! But never mind, cuz i had already prepared, but also kinda last minute lo...

It was about the parable of the Lost Coin. Thank God Brian, Debra and Anna agreed to help me. So it started with Deb lost her coin and was searching for it. After she found it, Brian and Anna came and celebrated with her. Then i started my short speech. The moment i went up, perhaps it was because of my thick thick NIV Bible with cover, Pastor Yew said.. Wow... pastor. I was like zhadou lor... But then i continued with a smile. Thank God for His grace and mercy, i manage to say everything loud and clear, though it was last minute preparation.

So after the service, Pastor Yew again called me... Pastor Andrew. I buat tak tahu la... Then i replied that Pastor Andrew is in KL Wesley... LOL!!! Many also said that i talked like a pastor.

I'm not afraid of being a pastor, in fact, im comfortable with that idea. But for the time being, that is my 2nd choice.

By the way, i'm struggling with the issue of obedience. I have the ability to resist temptations. But my flesh was desiring to sin. And i'm no longer that obedient boy.

i remember a verse in the Bible that said an obedient heart is better than any sacrifices. Hmm... even putting a lot into the offering bag doesn't please God if im not obedient...

3 agendas on Sat!
1. BK quiz
2. PC fair
3. having vegetarian meal


Let me talk about BK quiz first. Actually nothing much.. i met my bro Enoch there. His hair is now longer and more yeng. so jealous weh! MBS broke its record for the first time in history! We didn't get anything at all! Woohoo... Yeah..... So sad... By the way, Deborah was so shocked when she saw her name for the Elena Cooke trophy. She got third in Wilayah. haha! Philip and i was second! che wah!

then PC fair... not pork chop fair arr... So i was supposed to get my mummy a foldable keyboard, rubber that type, a notebook cooler and a flash drive for myself! In a nutshell, i got both cooler and flash drive the cheapest one. No regrets! Then i found the foldable keyboard. i realised i had not enough money and the stall did not have a card swiper. So i went around KLCC and look for a Maybank ATM. It took me an hour plus to look for one. With long queues everywhere, i got fed up and went to Hong Leong near Philharmornic Orchestra. Die lo... lost RM1 because i used Maybank Card. and i was wearing leather shoes... LEG PAIN!!! Most zhadou one is that after buying everything, i found one not so long queue behind the steps to Avenue K at the KLCC station. Stoooopid! It's a Maybank ATM, and the queue is sooooo short!

And that night... Mummy brought my family to a vegetarian restaurant. I'm not against vegetarianism. Daniel in the Bible was a vegan when he was in the Babylonian palace, and he was well blessed by God. Even one of the Christian fast is called Daniel fast, which is following Daniel's footsteps. But i really felt oppressed the moment im there. Partially is because the food sucks. Kononnya healthy choice, the soya bean milk has no sugar at all and possess the taste of overheated blender with partially melted plastic. EEEwwww!

Then, the restaurant was promoting vegetarianism and................... Buddhism. Again, i'm not against this religion, but i really felt oppressed when i was there. i lost my appetite. The LCD screen was showing about karma la... reincarnation la... and my free-thinker mom actually said there is reincarnation as sometimes she can see her past life. Hello! She has been married to my father for a good 20 years and she can still say that?! This is obviously not a Christian family! So i explained to her that there is incarnation, i.e. the resurrection of Christ, and definitely there is no reincarnation. i was surprised that she has philosophies about life... those irrational ones. like this, human are re-born after death coz if there is no re-born, the earth will be full of people and the earth has no end. Walau... please pray for her weh...

I wasted this Saturday...

Me president?!

today's the 1st time in my life that i'm chosen as president. In particular, the Badminton Club. I didn't really expected that. At least, i'm not desperate! i sucked in badminton + no badminton history at all. But apakan daya, the outgoing president and vice supported me. Few weeks ago when i voiced out my desire to join the club, it became a hit among the then members and EXCOs. It really surprised me as i only possess a relatively low popularity level in school.

On my way to the AGM venue, i was actually aiming for the Treasurer post, seeing that i'm already holding the accounts books of CF and District MYF. I didn't even bring a whole gang of friends to vote for me, like what 4K did, which nearly dominated almost all the clubs. But many of my L6K friends were there, to my another surprise.

Anyway, this was my speech, realising that other nominees are good players. a short prayer was said before this. So this is what i told them. "i'm not here to blow water, honestly i don't have history in badminton at all. But if you think that i can manage the club well, why not, vote for me?" That's all. And i was chosen. Guess what? Someone told me i got 55 votes. Wow.

Soon after that, i saw the acocunts book. Fooooiiiiiyoh! Thank God i didn't step down and take this post. The book is simply messy with receipts stapled almost everywhere. Now i really thank God that i'm the president.

May God bless me in my presidency of this club and treasureship of CF and District MYF, not forgetting my studies, horizontal and vertical relationships and small little ministries for God!

These few days, the quiet time material Our Daily Bread and the 40 days prayer booklet led me to Romans 12. It's about being a living sacrifice for God, holy and pleasing to Him. That passage also talks about spiritual gifts.

The day before Prefectorial Board AGM, Benny chatted with me via MSN. He was kind of nervous. All i did was to tell him not to worry and seek God's kingdom and righteousness first as in Matt 6:33. After some conversations, he said he felt better. Walau... i seriously God is speaking through me lor...despite of my disobedience, He still used me to be His mouthpiece. And i'm exercising my spiritual gifts as well. Wah... God is so great!

And i can see that God loves Benny very much. it must be because Benny does his Quiet Time faithfully, and Benny must be having an intimate relationship with God. Every morning i can see him in canteen reading ODB or praying. Such a faithful friend. I should learn like him.

today's our Prefectorial Board Annual General Meeting. While the ballots are counted, that uncle Tyo Wei Keat put his arms around Addison. Joanna, who was sitting nearby said to me that my 'ahem' kena stolen. Addison was like showing some satisfied face in front of me.

i of course not so syok la. i didn't want to lose out. so immediately i put my right arm around Janice my zi mui. To my horror, the girl that i said i like in my previous post saw it. Oops! Tyo & Addi! all because of your fault.

After the meeting, i went to her, who was crowned the best female prefect, and ask her la. By the way i was best male prefect & my committee got the best committee title... che wah... i asked her whether she's offended by seeing that. i was afraid that she will be thinking that i'm a pervert or playboy. Fortunately she geleng-ed kepala. Then i confessed la. That's the person i meant in my previous post was her. She knew it. i also reminded her the later post that i choose to release her from my thoughts. Thank God that she agreed that the two of us are still good friends.

As for the Form 5 boy, i leave it to him la. Whether their relationship will 'open flower & have fruit', it's up to him. i love both of them and i want them to possess happiness till the end of their breath.

Anyone willing to teach me guitar, drums, flute, piano and harmonica?

i choose to release her...

kinda painful la... but im not sad. i know i just did the right thing.

Perhaps this is the shortest crush ever in my life. Not really crush but i do like her.


The reason i release her from my 'possesion' is because of another brother. He is even younger than her, that is, he's F5. On Thursday night, it was rare that he's online. So after some conversations, he himself said he likes her also. He likes her inner beauty.

i was thinking. Why la both of us always like the same girl? last time it was another her, now this her. This is like let's say we are playing mahjong. When i call 'sik wu' (means i almost win), he's the one who 'zid wu' (means he block me from winning). By the way i don't play mahjong.

i love this friend of mine very much. Even he's younger than i, i learnt a lot from him. In order not to lose this such wonderful friend, i choose to make this sacrifice. hopefully the two of them will be happy.

well, i can say that she's not whom God wants for me. i'll wait with faith.

i BLESS THEIR RELATIONSHIP.

i don't know how to say this... but err.... i think i like a girl. An older girl.

Earlier, i have set some guidelines about my requirements regarding my ideal life partner. After searching high and low and crushing here and there, at last!... i realised that the ideal "her" is just around the corner! She basically meets all my criteria. Christian... catholic la... Decent... not lala... Knows chinese... can speak canto... better still... haha... she uses the same phone model as i. Haha now you know who is she... lol... another thing is that she uses 016 instead of 012 or 017... sad... never mind la... she is almost reaching the ideal level.

But she's older...

She's older...

she's older...

Hmm... should i court her?

Have i grown cold?

Acts 16

This was assigned by Miss Moey to all BK students. Do read it. Click the pics. It's kind of funny. Enjoy!

on buying shares

After some thoughts, i feel that i should talk about buying shares here. $$$ €€€€

Well, normally people buy shares that has the potential to grow well. The best would be that the price of the shares is very low, means that the company is not performing well, and then the price shoots up. Whatever type of shares, people definitely won't buy shares that gurantee loss, even if the price is low.

I'm now in a similar condition. i don't get to choose. i have to buy the shares that might make me lose, not only money but time and effort. While my other friends are investing on the growing ones, i have to take the one which may cost cheap and may even sell cheaper.

What i really mean is taking over the post of president of the MYF. William was elected president at early February this year, the 3rd. His MYF is strong, with a lot of members. He's definitely investing in a growing product. Addison is elected president today. LMCP youths are in a big number as well. Though LMC is a small church, their youth to adult ratio is high compared to my church. My youth to adult ratio is low, which means adults stand a higher percentage in numbers.

i'm not talking bad about my own youths. i really love all of them. But my MYF is getting boring as weeks pass by. Not many attend now. This made MYF even boring. Many activities can't be done.

Adults are the factor as well. They always want the kids to go back early and to study well.
All they want is blessings for the kids but do not let the children participate and serve. My mother is like that. She's not a Christian. She doesn't like me serving in church. But the moment she knew i got an A for Bible Knowledge, she told me to get scholarship from the church, thinking that the church is supposed to serve us, not that we serve the church. Kind of frustrated with her attitude.

And i know that Satan is doing a good job now. i really want to break that old liar's tricks. If not, i'll rugi teruk-teruk in this investment. i need Jesus' help!

During the first 3 days of Lower Six orientation, i found out this interesting idea.

When i leaned, Addison sat straight. When i bent forward or sit straight, Addi leaned. From this, i had the idea that when he is up, i'll be down. When he is doing well, i may not. When i feel tired and sleepy in class, he's paying attention. Vice versa. It's true weh...

That is why both of us promised to back each other up. Now he's the new president for Chapel Committee and i'm only the 'friend of Chapel'. Not a big post. Well, i hope the best for both of us when we serve God together.

Oh yeah! We tasted Pearl Milk Tea just before we went for Physics tuition today. His was strawberry and mine blurberry. Haha! Nice!

This happened yesterday. Just to cut the story short, i was in the library doing my Rancangan Membaca, similar to Nilam.

The library was noisy. Damned noisy. But one of the librarians dared to say that the library is his territory and thus, he is allowed to use Cantonese without being booked by the prefects. Hey brainless dude! How dare you say this in front of me?!

Ok... never mind. It's your territory. I choose not to book you. But... did you do what you should do in your territory?! You are a librarian, and you can just let the library be as noisy as your own class!

This made me failed to complete my RP when the library is about to close. You know what that librarian said to me? "Hey, 1 whole hour also cannot finish arr? What did you do arr?".

I was damned pissed off. I didn't complete my RP. I did something that i consider right. I crumpled my own paper, not saying a thing. Wow! Some of the librarians felt my burning anger. Well, i consider that i did the right thing because i did not scold nor curse nor slap them.

By the way, in the coming Board of Student Librarians AGM, you guys will be in deep sh*t!

i hate myself!

i knew that i;m not smart at all, yet i blame others on bad things that happened to me...

im so selfish!

in regards with my previous post, the guy that i mentioned on the 1st 1/2 part has explained to me things. i'm glad that he is really studying. If you saw the word 'hypocrite', he's not.

by the way, i am still damned angry with those stooooopid ppl who make me work my ass off and screwed my SPM! can't blame them totally, coz im not smart in the beginning.

STOOPID idiots!

STOOPID!!! rm 120 went down the drain just like that!

All this while i thought that i did not get the letter to attend the Kasturi prize-giving ceremony. Mana tahu, today as i reached home from school, i was curious with an opened letter, which i did not care much to attend to it since it's opened and i assumed that i've read it. Well, true enough. The title is "Jemputan ke Majlis Anugerah...". My heartbeat stopped a while when i see those words. The letter was sent on the 22nd of May, which means i already got it like so long ago!

The ceremony was yesterday in Federal Hotel, a Sunday. So smart la those Kasturi bosses. Actually i knew about that ceremony when my classmates asked around about who's attending it, just that i did not have the letter to show to them when i collect my rm120. All in my mind was parent's day in church which was yesterday and the late letter will be the excuse that i'm not attending that ceremony.

But now... i really wanna shout out those vulgar words which i know in a string! The letter says that collection of the prizes after the ceremony will not be entertained.

Many told me that i did the right choice for attending church yesterday instead of that ceremony. Yeah right! If this happens on you guys, will you attend church?!

i am willing to sacrifice if the MYF is willing to present their best on parent's day, since i am given the responsibility to lead them for the presentation. But what happened?! Only 4 including me turned up. And i had school that morning. i seriously don't mind sacrificing a lot for the sake of MYF. and i could have spent more time getting signatures from my seniors for my orientation and have a fun time with them. But WHY AM i SOOOOO DUMB to even want to do this presentation?! DUMB ASS honhon!!!

At last, we didn't practice the song. We changed to poem recitation, which was LAME!!! The MP of Batu, Tian Chua was there also. Matilah... our MYF memalufied ourselves in front of him! Anyway thanks a lot for those who turned up for the 'practice'.

Now, i'm damned angry with those who did not attend. Remember how you guys make me worked my ass off last year even when it's my SPM year? i even had to attend the Christmas practice on the Sunday where my Literature in English paper was very near! Well, i screwed up my LiE paper! And all you guys say to me is 'God will bless you ya!' Fu*k off!!! STOOPID! Don't simply make decision for God! Assho*es!

I damned pissed off with those who are giving excuses all the time. They can't come because of studies? Don't bullsh*t! As if you are studying! and now you are saying that you can't help out because you didn't do well in your studies and you wanna study now. Tell me then, is it FAIR to me, that you guys wanna study and made me screwed up my SPM?! Don't come and tell me that i did very well by getting 11A's. I screwed up my sciences and maths! Don't forget i have another 4 more subjects! Buggers!

i'm terribly sorry if you think you are whom i mentioned and you are offended. i said all these coz i can't stand it anymore. and im saying what i think & feel personally. if you wish to justify yourself, do come and talk to me. i don't wish to have any misunderstandings between or among us.

sorry also for the vulgarity. i choose not to cancel them cuz those words show the intensity of my anger and disappointment.

I've BACKSLIDED. full stop.