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Casting Crowns - Who Am I
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.


Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.


Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.


Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.


Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.



This song is one of the much-loved worship song in JS.


Friday morning, as i was on my way to MBS, part of this song kept sounding in my head. I almost shed my tears in the bus but i held it back. Paiseh mar...

Anyway, it reminds me that God really loves me and care for me.

Firstly, the scandal that i had just before SPM. I had to pay back something. It was not totally my fault but the teachers... don't want to mention names... made it as though i was at fault totally. A very good friend of mine suddenly offered to help me. Initially he said i do not have to pay him back. That sounds scary to me. But i still want to pay him back. It's not nice to owe people mar...

After that, i went to MCKL. Just to enquire about the A-level there, though i know very well that i won't be studying there. Met a lot of people on the way and there itself. Classes are over.

Then i went to my father's working place in Bangsar to help out. The shop closed at about 10p.m. He was telling me that he ran short of money. This isn't the first time. I had told him since last time that whenever he has money, save it. Now dai sei (padan muka) lar... Everytime go Genting sure visit that demonic place. And he made me cannot go to MCKL. Maybe prayer conference also...

But i somehow remembered what my sai lou Enoch said and wrote on my NIV Study Bible. God loves you very much. Indeed, i felt that. I know very well that He loves me. The song itself tells me how much of undeserved love and care for me from God.

Lord i trust in You and put You as my goal,
No more downcast o my soul...